A STRANGER IN THE HOUSE. . .

do you know who is the person i hate the most?????

well, none other than my brother. . .

people kept telling me,

'Lise, bisag unsa pa na nimo ka-hate imong kuya, imo gihapon nang kuya'

yeah sure he is my blood-related,brother in short. . .

but i don't see him as my brother. . .

i treat him as a stranger. . .

"pnaka-baga'g nawng, walang utang na loob!"

these are the words i kept on telling to myself. . .

guys, don't think that i'm such a harsh sister. . .

you do not know the story behind our conflict. . .

i got problems too you now, but my problem is my brother. . .

i hate the devil inside him. . .

he's not the "kuya" i know. . .

i envy those people who has a brother who is so sweet, so kind, so gentle. . .

i really envy them, who seems so close to each other. . .

i envy those little sis or bro. who has a brother that treats them nicely. . .

i had that brother, once. . .

and i lost him a long time ago. . .

from a sweet,caring,gentle brother,

to a devil in disguise. . .

he may show his "SENSITIVE SIDE", but please, don't be deceive by those looks. . .

that's just the devil who disguises himself. . .

you can say, i really hate my brother. . .

yes, but it's not him i hate but the devil inside him. . .

i hate the way he treats us like we are no one to him!

i hate the way he treats the girls! his kids and practically everyone!

honestly, it came to my mind that one day, i might kill him while he

sleeps, while he eats or while he is turning his back. . .

if only killing was not a crime, i would have done it earlier to stop the burden and pains we have!

he is too much. . .

if you'll ask me what kind of pains we've been through because of him,

it will take me days to enumerate those pains. . .

so don't wonder if you'll ask me about my brother,i'll give you a smirk, you know the reason. . .

i wonder if those kind of people can change?

honestly, the other half of me wants him to go away and the other one,

wants him to change for the better, for our sake. . .

right now, all i can do, is watch him torture us [verbally or kng wala siya sa tarung pangutok niya, maybe physically]

i'm glad that i have partially let out my feelings towards him through this blog. . . think whatever you may think about this or about him or about me. . .

i'll just remind you: "YOU DON'T KNOW THE STORY BEHIND OUR CONFLICT"

better ask me before judging. . .

if ever he is reading this blog of mine, which i doubt, or anyone who knows him. . . .

[kahibalo jud ko naa jud]

"PLEASE LANG! CHANGE NAH! FOR THE BETTER AND NOT FOR THE WORST! MA-LUOY KA!"

"GOD HELP US, HELP MY BROTHER!"

are my last words for this blog. . .